It's Happening Again..

I have no idea what I will do with myself if I have a new foot blister, once the blistered skin is removed it turns into an ulcer. Last time I had a blister it took me over half a year to heal, however I was on my feet a lot during that time, in the middle of moving and then unpacking. This time if I have a new blister at least I'll have the time to be off of my feet and let it slowly heal.

I feel like having it amputated. At least then I'd have one less thing to worry about. No more foot drop, neuropathy problems of the ankle and foot. I know it would be difficult to adjust but there is a part of me that just feels it would be easier to handle having this handicap as opposed to having the one I now struggle with.

One foot blister that spread all over the bottle of my poor foot and then was an ulcer for over half a year later, that now wants to come back again as it seems to never want to heal. I do not want to have this problem for the rest of my life. I never had this problem before that stupid ped egg. That ped egg is evil and what started this entire mess. My poor foot acts like it's diabetic. These are days that I wish I wasn't disabled and was "normal" once again. Oh how my life would be entirely different if that was the case.