Monday Was Crazy

Monday was crazy in the since that so much happened that didn't need to. Things were said that should have been and life has been stress and frustration again since that moment Monday evening. Family stuff naturally as if this was something that happened between friends and I two things would have resulted from it. Either we would no longer be friends or it wouldn't of happened in the first place because they are my friends. Hopefully things can all get figured out because I had almost three anxiety attacks that day and terribly scared myself and my hubby.

Every time something like this happens I find myself wondering so many things, why it has to happen in the first place and how can it be avoided in the future? However old and new problems seem to surface and happen anyway regardless.

For the past several days I have been trying to play it all back and figure out what I could have done differently. Of course I didn't want to talk about this on my blog until everything had been resolved however this is a good way for me to get my thoughts out, so I'll say my peace and hopefully be able to sleep tonight without as much worry weighing down my shoulders.

Problem is that I am so different than they are, the person of concern and reason for my frustration, worry, hurt... I feel like it doesn't even begin to describe all the feelings that I've had within the past several days. To top it off this always seem to happen every few months, perfect timing that this had to happen during my husbands vacation week from work.

Today my husband and I talked about things and have an agreement about how we feel. Now just to talk to the other person and see what they think about everything and if we can work through this or if this will be a set back. After our discussion we decided to go out and enjoy some shopping and then a movie. I was happy to pick up some incense from World Market, was a clearance package cause the glass was cracked but hopefully with a little glue and paint I can make it pretty again. It's just the case for the incense that was damaged, everything else was fine.

Tomorrow we have friends coming over to visit. May just have two people coming over but may have more. Just hope that we can enjoy ourselves and relax. Dyed my hair today but didn't turn out as I hoped. The dye only made my hair a shade lighter than what is is already but one thing is for sure, it smells wonderful today.