Today on the drive after buying a dead turkey for Thanksgiving, I was almost hit on the highway by a black truck who was trying to suddenly get into the far left lane while I was obviously right beside him. I slammed on the breaks a little, swerved to the left towards the medium and honked my horn a little. He got back into his lane and acted like he did nothing wrong. As quickly as that happened I began to immediately feel a panic attack come on. It didn't ever turn into a full blown attack but I can feel it in my chest and I can tell it's not going away. When it gets this bad it usually stays there until it is able to release the pent of feeling. Last time I felt this way I had three attacks in one night, that was only a few months back.
Honestly I do have a lot of things happening right now that can very well give me a reason for the elevated feelings and stress. Worry that I won't be able to finish everything in time, worry that I won't be able to cook all the dishes of food and get them out in time on Thanksgiving day, and now all the stress about this stupid poor dead turkey that's now home sitting in the fridge. I am just one very unhappy camper.
Unfortunately I don't have time to sit here and complain as I have work to do. I can hope that this panic attack doesn't come back and finish me off later tonight but that would be a HUGE hope and I don't believe that it's going away any time soon. Oh holiday stress how I loathe you.. and it's not even Black Friday yet.
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